Just Because...

I've been wanting to start a travel blog for a few months now.  I would find myself thinking about it all the time, until I just couldn't stand it anymore.  While I had the voices in my head telling me that I'm not a writer and I know nothing about what a blog really entails...I also have a much more personal drive that I've felt like I needed to get out. My Husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for the last year and my body just doesn't seem to be cooperating.

Now I know that its common for it to take couples this long, but that doesn't change the disappointment.  I'm coming into a stage where I understand Women who have been trying for years to no avail.  I know I'm not in their shoes, but I get it.  I now realize just how annoying it is to hear, "just stay positive!" or "it'll happen as soon as you stop thinking about it."  I'll never say this to someone trying to get pregnant again. 

I don't want this to be a log of whining about not being pregnant.  My intention is only to help myself through the changing emotions I've been having.  I am truly grateful for the life I have today.  I've been sober for sometime, married to the most wonderful man, and I own my own successful business.  But it can get tough when I face things that are so out of my control, especially something I've wanted and expected to happen so easily my whole life.  I'm determined to turn this into something healing and positive.

I guess the point is, this has all motivated me to shift my focus to travel, photography...and this blog hopefully.  I'm not really expecting people to read this.  I think I get a handful of clicks on my site a day, and honestly I think that helps me to be more honest about what I'm going through.  It's not an easy subject to talk about and I know it hasn't been THAT long, so some friends and loved ones may think I'm being overly dramatic.  But most of those friends and loved ones never had trouble getting pregnant.

So I think I'll start with my recent trip to Greece.  There were definitely highs and lows on that trip, and I think it may help me to get that out.  I've made a promise to myself to take an adventure every month, even if its just a two hour drive away.  Next month I'm going to Michigan to visit a dear friend and I just bought my tickets to go home to Maui in November.  I'm looking forward to planning my life around travel instead of my ovulation (although that will still be a factor ha ha!).  After all, I don't have kids yet- so I might as well make the best of my freedom! 


One of our places in Greece (Mykonos).  Taken with my FujiXT2 June 2018

One of our places in Greece (Mykonos).  Taken with my FujiXT2 June 2018